Debby's doings

Watch her trying to regain her grip on life.

Pic spam! No, really.
July
[info]debbycus
[info]xoxk9 was kind enough to remind me that I haven't posted in a long while (not even memes!! :O ). It made me realise that, although I have been simming, I haven't actually shared pictures of the weirdness that tends to rule my games. So, I present to you a huge batch of pictures (37), all from my Sims 3 gameplay. I have excluded some of them, as well as plain old forgot to take certain pictures of a few spawns. (My household has given home to 9 sims altogether, of 3 generations... then I got bored and don't really play anymore :(. )

On a side note, I hate Photobucket. It kept screwing up. Oh, and also, the images are in .png format, because and the PB guys are known to compress images, and .png is lossless. Take that, PB! :P



To my (experimental) version of Sunset Valley! )


Thanks to each and every one who bothered to view and read, although I did not offer you cookies (or rum)! :P

And thanks, Jess, for poking me, seriously :D

Update
Alan Rickman
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Hm. It looks like I've found an explanation for my mysterious and random nosebleeds, and if we consider it this way, they aren't all that random. Or mysterious. Apparently, the more hungover I am, the greater the nosebleed. It's not really the amount of drinks I have had, more like how tired and worn I am the day after. Bit sleepy = little to no nosebleed. Slept only a few hours and having a rough day = looot of blood and also dizziness. And coffee seems to worsen it too.
This does not explain, however, why these nosebleeds occurred after I've moved away for university. After all, I used to drink a lot more before that. Ah, who cares.

My mom told me today that there's a girl, 17, in her school who reminds her of me, a lot. Rocker(ish) T-shirts, lot of bracelets, very self-conscious, and has a strong opinion about almost everything.
Well, I indeed can recall being like that when I was her age, but that is not me anymore. I remember boasting about how I never give up anything, I go on if I can see any route, and just fight, regardless of the injuries I may get, and come out victorious in the end. Nowadays, it has happened countless times that I make a timid move, and at the first sign of pain, I turn around and whimper away, and I don't even dare to look back.
WTF, self? I used to get out there, and greet anything with open arms. Now I'd much rather allow all the questions to consume me than to actually do something. This is why I hate growing up and grown-ups. I know I've grown far too proud to stand up and take the necessary steps I used to take before. And even though I know they lead to success in one form or another, I can't bring myself to do it. Where's the ambition? Where did the urge to move go?...
This has got to stop. I simply cannot watch everything go by. Wish me luck :)
And yes, btw, I was totally rambling about taking the initiative in a relationship :P
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a bitch, a whore, nothing less, nothing more.
July
[info]debbycus
The mask slipped today and I didn't care. What the fucking hell is wrong with me?? It took everybody just one glance to notice that "something's wrong." Yes, thank you, it is just a fellow human being losing hope and faith and falling through empty space, not even thinking that she would be caught by anybody.

It is funny how, after a month of forced happiness, a sad news can slap kick you in the face... make you see in real colours again. Or lack, thereof.

I was feeling fine, actually starting to believe in something again, getting my hopes high that I will be truly happy some day soon. And then life just has to be a bitch again... and you get the news that someone, who is a strong inspiration in your life, has had breast cancer for the past year or so, and it is quite dubious if they can even do anything about it.

So don't ask me "What's happened?" Life has happened. It just has to crush you like this. I swear it is not worth it, the energy, the time, to struggle to be happy. If sooner or later you get a smack in your face, what's the point, truly?

I am not going to fake a smile again, I shall not pretend again. I will not act to be someone I ceased to be ages ago. I shall resume to fade away slowly, like I did in the past 18 months. Should something intervene and revive me, fine. But I am done battling. ...And I am not sorry.
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Steampunk love! (And just about time)
July
[info]debbycus
I haven't actually been fond of steampunk, but this... made me fall in love madly!



Site: One of one hundred. And guess what, they're making 100 of this. Where is my monies when I need it the most, goddamnit. Also, I think it looks incredibly cute in that huge box, with just the tip visible :D

And for those of you who tend to be bored and miss their daily WTF-dosage: Geekologie! (You know you want to click it.)
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Sirius
[info]debbycus
Train Horns

Created by Train Horns



YES, I did hear it, and thank you for the headache >.> Best friend heard it too (both aged 20, just for the record).

sample my playlist
Sirius
[info]debbycus
[info]jenfold_sims gave me the F word letter, and apparently she knew what she was doing because finding songs with this letter was fucking hard. Anyway.

1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.



On an unrelated note, I think I should resume making my "joys of life" posts. I think. They did me little good, but little is still more than nothing... Right.
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'nother test, plus me needing a sleep
July
[info]debbycus
Snagged from quite a few...

Take the free personality test!
A lot moar said about this here. But you don't really want to read it, trust me :P )

...It is somewhat terrifying as how accurate this description can get. I also lol'd at many parts, due to them being everything but true (to me). BUT ANYWAYS, I'M LIKE JAON D'ARC, FEAR ME >8-D


Completely irrelevant, but a few days ago I've realised that the male counterpart of my self-sim has the same name as one of my teachers (who happens to be awesome, but also fearsome). Well, not really the same, as the sim is Octavius, and the teacher's Octavian, but the similarity is awkward enough for me not wanting to play that household again. (For the record, I've named the sim in mid-summer, way before university).
However, today I found out that my teacher goes by the nickname "Tavi". Puts things in an entirely new perspective, doesn't it? XD

Meme attack!
July
[info]debbycus
Two memes that interested me, stolen from various (read: many) people from my friend-list.

Highlight in bold the things from the list which apply to you... )


Month meme

RULES:

+ Pick your birth month.
+ Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
+ Bold (or italicize) the five-ten that best apply to you.
+ Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.


JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

Epic list of months )
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Graduation exams
July
[info]debbycus
Because I want to have a detailed summary of this. What, it is a milestone in my life, 'kay? :P And I want something to help me remember in later months/years. Or, seeing how outrageously tired I am right now, I might need to look at this in a few minutes.
Urgh. People say that getting drunk kills brain cells. I say that studying this intensively kills brain cells. I'd rather be drunk every fucking weekend than to study non-stop O.@ Thank GOD it only lasts two weeks...

And the list goes on... )

ETA: Okay, who borked GoS again? I keep getting that message of DOOOM again: "Your session timed out while posting. Please try to re-submit your message" D= Fixed! All hail the FOJ :D
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So instead of studying...
July
[info]debbycus
If certain people knew that I am doing this instead of studying for my graduation exams, I would be dying right now. But since they don't know... *Huge grin*

(Taken from [info]laurenpuppetpal and [info]aikea_guinea, who stole it from [info]jadeakira and [info]fated_oph3lia, who stole it from [info]triptych... :P)

You know how sometimes people on your friends list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when are they working THERE? Since when are they dating HIM/HER? Since when?" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy mine below, erase my answers putting yours in their place then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration! One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.


I'm not even close to being dead, see? Well, not yet anyway. )
Oh, and if you do read this, please let me know by leaving a short comment, I'd like to see who has bothered to read all this shit :)

Edited to add a few more things, trying to provide with more "elaborate" answers :P
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