debbycus

The mask slipped today and I didn't care. What the fucking hell is wrong with me?? It took everybody just one glance to notice that "something's wrong." Yes, thank you, it is just a fellow human being losing hope and faith and falling through empty space, not even thinking that she would be caught by anybody.

It is funny how, after a month of forced happiness, a sad news can slap kick you in the face... make you see in real colours again. Or lack, thereof.

I was feeling fine, actually starting to believe in something again, getting my hopes high that I will be truly happy some day soon. And then life just has to be a bitch again... and you get the news that someone, who is a strong inspiration in your life, has had breast cancer for the past year or so, and it is quite dubious if they can even do anything about it.

So don't ask me "What's happened?" Life has happened. It just has to crush you like this. I swear it is not worth it, the energy, the time, to struggle to be happy. If sooner or later you get a smack in your face, what's the point, truly?

I am not going to fake a smile again, I shall not pretend again. I will not act to be someone I ceased to be ages ago. I shall resume to fade away slowly, like I did in the past 18 months. Should something intervene and revive me, fine. But I am done battling. ...And I am not sorry.

I haven't actually been fond of steampunk, but this... made me fall in love madly!



Site: One of one hundred. And guess what, they're making 100 of this. Where is my monies when I need it the most, goddamnit. Also, I think it looks incredibly cute in that huge box, with just the tip visible :D

And for those of you who tend to be bored and miss their daily WTF-dosage: Geekologie! (You know you want to click it.)

Created by Train Horns

YES, I did hear it, and thank you for the headache >.> Best friend heard it too (both aged 20, just for the record).

jenfold_sims gave me the F word letter, and apparently she knew what she was doing because finding songs with this letter was fucking hard. Anyway.

1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.

• Farewell by Avantasia.
  
• Fight by Chiasm. Yes, I listen to industrial too, bite me :P
  
• Faustus by Dark Moor. fated_oph3lia introduced me to this band, and I must say I adore them. So have another F-song from them, For Her.
  
• Flowers of the Sea by Era. <3
  
• Fury, from Muse. Naturally :P

On an unrelated note, I think I should resume making my "joys of life" posts. I think. They did me little good, but little is still more than nothing... Right.

Snagged from quite a few...


( A lot moar said about this here. But you don't really want to read it, trust me :P )

...It is somewhat terrifying as how accurate this description can get. I also lol'd at many parts, due to them being everything but true (to me). BUT ANYWAYS, I'M LIKE JAON D'ARC, FEAR ME >8-D


Completely irrelevant, but a few days ago I've realised that the male counterpart of my self-sim has the same name as one of my teachers (who happens to be awesome, but also fearsome). Well, not really the same, as the sim is Octavius, and the teacher's Octavian, but the similarity is awkward enough for me not wanting to play that household again. (For the record, I've named the sim in mid-summer, way before university).
However, today I found out that my teacher goes by the nickname "Tavi". Puts things in an entirely new perspective, doesn't it? XD

Two memes that interested me, stolen from various (read: many) people from my friend-list.

( Highlight in bold the things from the list which apply to you... )


Month meme

RULES:
+ Pick your birth month.
+ Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
+ Bold (or italicize) the five-ten that best apply to you.
+ Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.


JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

( Epic list of months )

Because I want to have a detailed summary of this. What, it is a milestone in my life, 'kay? :P And I want something to help me remember in later months/years. Or, seeing how outrageously tired I am right now, I might need to look at this in a few minutes.
Urgh. People say that getting drunk kills brain cells. I say that studying this intensively kills brain cells. I'd rather be drunk every fucking weekend than to study non-stop O.@ Thank GOD it only lasts two weeks...

( And the list goes on... )

ETA: Okay, who borked GoS again? I keep getting that message of DOOOM again: "Your session timed out while posting. Please try to re-submit your message" D= Fixed! All hail the FOJ :D

If certain people knew that I am doing this instead of studying for my graduation exams, I would be dying right now. But since they don't know... *Huge grin*

(Taken from laurenpuppetpal and aikea_guinea, who stole it from jadeakira and fated_oph3lia, who stole it from triptych... :P)

You know how sometimes people on your friends list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when are they working THERE? Since when are they dating HIM/HER? Since when?" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy mine below, erase my answers putting yours in their place then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration! One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.

( I'm not even close to being dead, see? Well, not yet anyway. )
Oh, and if you do read this, please let me know by leaving a short comment, I'd like to see who has bothered to read all this shit :)

Edited to add a few more things, trying to provide with more "elaborate" answers :P